She called me darling in that exotic way and said ‘You know, when you catch (throwing out her hand and grasping) a butterfly and hold it in your hand, it will take one year in your clasped hand for it to stay when you open it. However, when they open their fingers, darling, you aren’t so magic anymore and what do they do?’ and she blew onto her hand. ‘So when he treats you badly, you remind him that you are not his butterfly, you are not his little girl, and you tell him to go back to his mama until he learns it right. We are adventurers, my darling, like wild dogs roaming waiting for our masters to arrive’.

I wasn’t sure how I felt about this as she discussed her infidelities between a man of means, and one of youth and passion. The former have her a ring worth approximately $3000 and she pawned it the next week to pay for groceries and a nice weekend together. When he asked her where the ring was, he went and bought it off the pawnbroker and told her if she pawned it again he would leave here. She told me ‘Daaarling, I told him to go find another woman, and that I would sell it again if I wanted to, because $3000, $5000, $10,000 it doesn’t matter because I love you, I care for you, I make you happy, I am worth every cent you possess. When you love someone, darling, you must hold them by the love, two loves holding together. So I say, if I am, if my love is holding his love by the heart while he holds my love in his pocket, then it is nothing, and it belongs to nobody.

She told me ‘I use my own name for a reason, because it is a code for who I am! So whenever they call me ‘pussycat’ or ‘baby’ or any of that other bullshit, I tell them go back to your girlfriend whatever idiot she is because you must be blind you can’t see who you’re talking to. Darling, it is very sweet, but they are trying to make you forget who you are, so that you really do become a baby, or a cat or whatever bullshit, darling. You be careful, you remind them the only thing they can call you is their Queen.’

Funny how a woman I was sure to be a nut, was also a pearl…

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